Monday, January 26, 2009

A new goal?

While walking on the treadmill yesterday, I was contemplating new goal's for my self. I still have the overall goal to loose 20-30 more lbs and get healthy. But I've kind set my self up for a time frame. My short term goal is to be able to do my pre-programmed walks on the treadmill ( there are 3 that I do, that range from 20-30 mins) with out having to hold on for my life to finish them. My original goal was to be able to just finish the pre-programmed walks. I have been successful in that. Now I want to be able to do it with out having to support myself through out the program.
Now my long term goal is a bit bigger. I want to do a marathon. There are 2 I am considering. The date for them are already set for Jan 2010. The more reasonable one is the Family 5k. The harder part of this, will be getting the family to agree to do it too. The second is a Half Marathon. Now both of these marathons are in Disney World. The 5k is though one of the parks, the half marathon in from Epcot to the Magic Kingdom and back. So I have my goals set now. And I know I can do this!!!!!

Friday, January 23, 2009

Finally here

I'm so glad that the work week is over. It seems to have dragged on. I guess because it was just so emotionally draining this week, and all the drama at home with Mickey. It's been 4 days and we still are not speaking. If he would just apologize for his rude behavior and bad temper, then maybe things could go back to the way they were. Although I don't think they will ever be right again. Something is missing in our relationship. We've talked about what changes needed to be made to make it work for each of us. I tried but after 1 day that's all I saw of his efforts. So if things go back to the way they were, it will at least be tolerable.

But on a brighter note, I stuck to my diet today and walked on the treadmill again!!! Yeah me!!

Thursday, January 22, 2009

I did it

I walked on the treadmill. I finally stopped making excuses for not walking. I gave myself a lecture today. I don't understand why I could be so stubborn when it come to some things, but couldn't be disciplined enough to just walk on a treadmill regularly. I figured I must not have wanted it bad enough. But I do, I need to loose weight. I am determined to loose weight. i kinda lost my will after I decided not to have another baby not matter how much weight I lost. But i need to loose the weight no matter what my future holds. I need to be healthy. Healthy body = Healthy mind.

This has been a rather tough week at work. My boss had a recurrence of her breast cancer last year after many, many years in remission. She had surgery and chemo and as been doing well. Worked through all of her treatments. Very upbeat and optimistic. This week she learned that it has spread to her brain and has started radiation. She also has a taken a leave of absence from work. She has 2 girls in their early 20's. She may never she her grandchildren or even see them get married. I have had a hard time taking this all in. It certainly brings home the need to cherish everyday for what it is, a blessing. I want to have many more days, so that has been my motivation for wanting to be healthy. I hope that i will be able to tel her what a motivation she had been for me after I have lost my weight and gotten back into shape. I guess I better get my ass in shape soon, so I CAN tell her.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Too long

That's what it's been since I've last written. The holidays were a bit busy. Everyone enjoyed themselves. It was a little stressful for me, since money has been a little short this holiday, but it turned out nice anyway. Now time to play catch up with some of the bills.

Cinderella had an awareness project due after the first of the year. She choose to raise money for the SPCA. Since she waited until a week before the project was due, her options were limited. But in one week she was able to raise $116 and almost 100lbs of food to donate. i was very proud of her. She was very proud of herself too. Now to see what kind of grade she gets. The grading will all be on the written part of the project and not how much money was raised. So we will see.

As for exercising, it has been almost non-existent since I last wrote. It was busy through the holidays and the last time I walked a week ago or so, my foot that I broke a year ago really started to hurt again. Maybe next time I should wear my shies when I walk on the treadmill.

Mickey is getting excited about the Superbowl. He's hoping his team will make it this year. We'll find out today. Everyone will be here today to watch the game. Last weeks game was very exciting here. Afterwards we went to the airport to greet the team when the got home. There were a lot of other fans there too. The energy level there was amazing. So we wait for today's games to start. I think the waiting is the worst part.